Reading Alone

Lately (psh, lately..... more like for my whole life) I've been feeling overwhelmingly lonely. It's annoying and I'm not sure what to do about it. Or really why I'm blogging about it.
Reading helps a bit. And I've been doing a lot of that. Going through a book in two days. During work. I'm sure if I just read during my free time too I'd have them done in a day. Devouring them the way I have.
One thing that I've noticed about myself (I noticed a few years ago) is that reading typically seems to upset me. I will finish the book happy, but during reading I'll either be moody or depressed. I've never figured out why. I should figure that out lol

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