Purity in Words

I'm going to explain the difference between laziness and ADHD. Laziness: averse or disinclined to work, activity,or exertion. Taken from Dictionary.com ADHD: I'm not going to write a definition for this so much as I'm going to write what happens with me between starting a project and finishing it. First, I'd like to point out that my projects (drawing, knitting, vlogging, etc) do not have a deadline. I do them on my own and at my own will. This is what happens in those cases: Let's pick on my drawings, because each project has a slightly different process. I will come up with an idea for a drawing, get excited and start to draw. If the drawing takes longer than an hour, which most do, I will start to get distracted and lose focus. This is even more so if the drawing is frustrating in any way, which they usually are. I will at least have the basic drawing finished. Then I will put it aside, either because I need a break or because I no longer have time and I ...

So, I'm going to get out as much frustration as I can in a short amount of time. Recently, I came to the conclusion that I very likely have ADHD-I (Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder, Inattentive subtype). I came to this conclusion based on the information of what ADHD is and how it coincides with my childhood and my present. This is a good thing because now I understand who I am, and why I do the crap I do. And also, now I can take the problems of it and deal with them effectively. Also, its a bad thing for these reasons: I was never diagnosed as a child, and if I had been, it would have saved me a lot of grief. It's not my parents fault though because, back then, it wasn't being diagnosed efficiently anyway. No one would have been able to recognize the obvious traits I was exhibiting. So now I'm dealing with the guilt and the resentment from that. I know I'll get over it, but its going to take time. Also, I realize that getting an official diagnosis is g...

I am posting this whole blog using my voice text feature on my phone and I'm not going to correct it. let's see how rediculous this gets. so today I slept in then I woke up at 630 and I got up and played will work raft. n I did the headless horseman instance and I did not get anything nice. except because of the level 85 instance and went back in a little sleep for priest. she didnt even do anything. anyways so in my pumpkin all I got was a mask and a wand. totally not worth doing how much worse in infants. so then I went to mount high schol in try to save to rob from being separated by the 4 elements. I die during the fire element quest but someone stay back and help me. sure orange was really nice. I feel so bad for her because I was just so out of my games. I haven't really played in a long time so I died easy. she was so nice though. ice cream cheese stuffed chicken wrapped in bacon. for dinner. and a baked potato with sour cream. my sister's boyfriend came over...

So, my ex-fiancee just told me the very thing I wish he had told me three years ago. He told me that he wished he could give us a second chance. Three years ago, I probably would have cried for joy. But now, I simply gave him an answer to his question; did we make a mistake? I have two answers for that. And this is where it gets complicated because of my way of thinking. I believe in fate. But I also believe that you can change fate. Amid all the paths in life, the right and wrong ones, I believe that there are multiple right ones. I knew, at the time, that he was the one. I didn't think it, I knew it. But somewhere, we took a wrong path that lead to our breakup. And I eventually took the path I'm on now. Which I know is the right one. I also believe that everyone has soulmates. Plural, yes. I believe Darby WAS the one, but now hes not because of the choices that were made. Now Stephen is the one. And he forever shall be so long as he lives. And I'm extremely happy wi...

I just can't do this too much longer. I haven't been this depressed since that time that I actually had a real reason to be depressed. And I'm super sleepy.