Grown Up Stuff

I can't deny that I've been part of the grown up world for a while. Got a job, paying bills and car insurance. I even pay a mortgage.
But there's something about getting married that makes being an adult more official. And I'm not afraid of that. I'm actually excited about it.
Even when I sit down and think of the serious parts of marriage, I have no doubt in my mind that get through even the worst with my husband by my side. I only plan on growing up just enough to grow in my relationship with him.
But something bothers me. Just one thing about married life really, seriously has me scared.
Children.
Actually, not so much children or parenting (and maybe this is a stupid fear) but rather pregnancy. I'm worried about that.
I've always been afraid of the consequences of pregnancy out of wedlock therefore never giving any thought to pregnancy itself.
Honestly, I'm not looking forward to that. It sounds unpleasant and painful.
Then again, I don't really have to think about it right now. I don't have to grow up.... Yet.

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